Friday, December 30, 2011

Sum up 2011 + Christmas + New Year eve Celebration

OK, the end of the year. Lotsa parties and celebration.  Well, man cannot just live by bread alone. We do need other things to complete our life.  December is indeed a 'bread and circuses' month.
When a new year is approaching, people always have their so called new year resolution. I doubt that do people really follow that? hmmm...question mark! Me, i don't have one as i know i won't really stick to that. if i had one, i wish i could i get slimmer this year. HAHAHA!
Ok talk about 2011, it was a great year after all. I joined pageant, more shootings, single and i was able to spend more time with friends and family. Attachment- done, spent my 4 months in law firm and went to travel around after that. Well, i really loved that.  No hard feelings i hope, i sincerely apologize to those i offended and thank those people who have been staying by my side whenever i need them. Now, is 2012! Lets do something crazy!

Christmas Eve

My lady boss had a small Christmas celebration, she called me up. I was laying in bed, watching 'House', so i thought like alright, since i got nothing to do, YEAHH why not! then that went like that, I thought it was a simple celebration, i say simple i mean.. chill and quiet. who knows, when i reached there, i saw 10+ bottles of red wine on the table, and good food as well. 

The thing was, only 10 + of us.. OMG!! yes, i started drinking like...3pm that day? and i was well aware that that night not gonna be an easy night. "WHO CARES!!! ITS CHRISTMAS EVE!"

And then 2nd round, it started around 8pm with family and with all relatives in KL. Its kinda like an annual party that we do it every year, Christmas Eve and New Year Eve- booze and tons of  nice home cooked food- typical Neo's gathering. All of us able to attend this gathering <33 what more could i ask for?


i didnt really eat that night as i had too MUCHHHH at 1st around.

 I  SURVIVED that night. Managed to drive back home..SOBERLY and most importantly, i got home safely. I was kinda proud of myself actually, HAHA! *rolling eyes*


another crazy night for Neo's family. Normally held at my uncle's, and my aunty is damn best baker ever. I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY IT! last year, my mouth was wired shut because of the surgery, so i was not able to eat those nice desserts and all my cousins tempted me and showed me HOW FREAKING TASTY THE DESERTS WERE!!

THIS YEAR...i told myself "I GONNA REVENGE!!!"

 Food is pretty much the same as last year... but the taste...MAMAMMY Yyyyaaa!


They taste like heaven!

with my sis and niece

Sisters, brother, uncle and my lovely cousin <3

Neo's sister 
i actually admire my sister got the courage to cut her hair short (who standing in the middle) *claps*

 with my cousin, who now lives in Spain 

Messy Bar + sexy Bartender 

Me and my cousin's daughter


well, Happy New Year to All of you. I hope that u guys have an awesome year ahead! cherish your love, your family and your friends. I appreciate every moment i spend with the people, especially those who care and love me. Who knows what the future holds in store for me. Life is short, live it now and live it with all your strength and passion! Don't keep it reserve against a day you might not have!


with love,
Alane xx

Sunday, November 13, 2011

I'm just a girl

normal day, normal music. using the word 'normal' is abit weird. Well, i can sit there whole day, listen to Toni Brexton and Whitsney Houston's songs. Oldies especially, songs made in a decade before. Well, i kinda like emo songs, yeaps, girls all love emo songs! HAHA.. guess its our nature eh! Have been partying less and trying to spend more time on studies and healthier activities, guess something has changed me *shocked
My friends are so surprised when i tell them "yea, i have no time to party now, free we can have dinner, catch up.". They are like "what?not party but dinner?" C'on! Was i really a party queen to you all last time? i think i was. Isshhh... Things are different now, i prefer to spend more time in reading, doing something beneficial and everyday is so productive. Whats more ridiculous, i sometimes sleep at 11pm on a Saturday nights *shocked x 2*


watch " The Good Wife" the whole weekend, I do party sometimes, but lesser compare to before. Maybe once or twice a month. It really depends on my mood. 
Well, perhaps this is because i'm doing my final year, my student life gonna end soon, i gonna cherish it, blah blah blah...ALTHOUGH i always say that i prefer working cause i can spend my own money. hmmm...i have no certain answer for this, maybe this is the effect of hormone changes...owhhhh no wonder i gain weight so easily now. 

Conclusion: i'm getting old :[ 


Oh no no..maybe this is abit too much for me. :p

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

My Normal Routine

(This only applies to WEEKDAYS *GRINS*)

My morning routine! Nowadays, i wake up at/around 7.30am, wash up myself, dress up and JOG! Unbelievable right for a lazy bum like me... Well, after months of uncontrolled eating styles and occasionally happy hour, i look like a pregnant woman  now, therefore... i gonna do something i told myself. Normally it takes 1 hour including the warm up, sit ups and cool down. After that, i make myself breakfast. YES, breakfast. To me, breakfast is very very very very.... important. C'on, its first meal of my day, so it must be a kissass one. I've been trying not to skip any of my breakfast, unless i over-sleep, even if i do, i will die die go and dapau something. Perhaps, nasi lemak or MacD breakie. 

 Normally i will prepare something like this, scramble eggs or omellete and sausage. Sometimes with sandwich or pancake. Cant expect me to eat the same thing eevrrryyydaaaayy.


All instant one, HAHA! only need to reheat the mantou and spaghetti i cooked the other day. But now microwave spoiled already, i can't have my mantou anymore. 

and Coffee!! i'm a coffee lover, i'm very particular in coffee, and the are only few cafes i like which are Starbucks and another one is Dr Cafe, St Francisco Coffee not bad also. 1 tea spoon of Nescafe powder, 1 tea spoon of creamer, 1 sugar and 1 sweetened condensed milk. Yeahh, that's Alane's Coffee. HAHA!

Ok now, i tell you why breakfast is so important!! Its common that people skip breakfast, especially those who are trying to lose weight, but let me tell you one thing in which i have doubt about it, there are a lot of articles actually talk about the importance of breakfast where scientific research has confirmed that most of the leading causes of death and chronic diseases are preventable. By adding breakfast to your eating pattern is a major step to improving your lifestyle.

A good breakfast boosts your energy, increases your intention span, and heightens your sense of well-being. You'll have better control of your emotions.  The effect of skipping it- short of attention span, lack of alertness, longer reaction time, low blood sugar, decreased work productivity and the list go on. Anyway, its a good investment of your time. Try to get into a habit of eating breakfast =))

After breakie- as you all aware that--->Girls, need time to dress up and get ready.  I don't really take a long time to prepare ( ok, maybe i lie) anyway, mostly half an hour?

Ok done! my nurdy look! Here i come, UM!!

In between if i have a long break, will come home and take a short nap if i'm really tired.

By the time i reach home after all the classes and discussions, meetings,blah blah blah, its already 7 ish. Again, i cook myself dinner, cause it's healthier and it saves cost. HAHA! steamed chicken and vege is my dinner most nights. 

Then i watch some shows, do my reading blah blah blah..sometimes hang out with friends, la la la....

Anyway, old nenek needs her beauty sleep. =)) 
Nitez everybody *yawn* 

Monday, October 31, 2011


"I hide behind a mask of smiles, so no one see beneath the surface"

You know what's fascinating masks can be? they hide all emotions. We all wear masks at times. Whether its a good thing or not, i won't say no, sometimes we need to take it down, even its just for alittle while. Hiding our true feelings for other, to protect them, most of the time, we protect ourselves. By putting a happy mask when we're sad or depressed. Acting like there's nothing happen and pretending nothing can hurt you. Always, a mask of deception and lies that makes people think that we're fine. People may look strong at the outside, but in fact, most of them just hiding the traces of tears. Inside, they're broken and they need someone that can lean on to get them through time that are hard for them. That always happens to most of us including me. Wearing a mask, to me, perhaps it helps me to forget myself, forget about problems that i'm facing, even just for awhile. 

After so many things and years, I notice that those people with strong look always the weakest one. They hide all these tears inside, hide all the pain and all the hurt, hide behind a mask, just hope nobody could see how they actually feel and they could continue fixing themselves. Inside they're a mess, a hurricane of emotions, a black hold of sorrow. Just hope that one day, they could still stand and hope that they would not break down because of these. 

In reality, all of us 'try on' different masks to see which is the most comfortable, which affords us the most protection from exposure. I used to question people," why do you all need to put on masks?" But only realized that i have been doing the same thing. We add layers and accessories that add more credibility to the whole costume- competitions, awards, diploma, get good grades, be a good girl/boy, get another car or a bigger house. Gradually, the costume becomes very heavy. Results? Mental and physical exhaustion. We burn out from the effort of trying to maintain a facade. We lose our ability to be spontaneous and enjoy the moment.

At times, i hope to get a stronger and harder shell so that i can protect myself; a better lock so that i will not easily open up myself.

Monday, September 26, 2011

My belated birthday party!!

Just had a wonderful birthday celebration, no birthday cake, no balloons, just alcohol  with all my love ones. It was a crazy night and i actually expected that alot would pass out and lay on the floor like nobody business. Too bad, although alot got really wasted that night, no one actually sleep like a deadbody on the floor. IShhhhh *big disappointed*


With Eugene, Andrew, Ester and Louis. =))

Got potential June! Keep it up! LOL

I looked abit tipsy in this picture. LOL

Before the party, 4 sexy beasts.

 Love Peter's facial expression. HAHA!

Will actually jealous of this picture. HAHA! Don't lar will. 

Anyway, thanks for all who dropped by or came to this party. * hugs and kisses*
 Thanks for your contribution and corporation. We will party soon ya =))

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Don't judge ME!

Matthew 7:1-5
" Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your's brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your owe eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ' Let me take the speck out of your eye.' when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speak out of your brother's eye."

People like to judge people by their external appearance. Well, no wrong. Its natural that people make judgments about a person based on their first impressions. This is normal that people judge by his or her looks, When people say that, " arhh..i don't care how she/he looks like, i don't give a damn." Bull shit, i don't F believe it. When we know someone get into a relationship, first thing we may ask " is his gf pretty?" or " how does the boyfriend look like". 

People always judge me by my looks and come up with these (grrrrr....) ---->>' she must be a party queen!",." she must be working cause she looks....", "she must be a playgirl.", ' she must have alot of boyfriends" and blah blah blah....Talking about my appearance, i have a tattoo on my upper back and a belly piercing which can't be seen easily unless i wear bikini. HAHA. My hair colour is close to blonde.

Well,  I love party and make friends. It's nothing wrong about it, i may have a very strong character which i never hold back from expressing my opinion.  Let me introduce myself, I'm a former Deputy Head Prefect, a very naughty one; Bad SPM results pushed me to study my ass off for my STPM,  I scored almost 4 flat in my STPM luckily, and that has given me a chance to fulfil my dream as a lawyer. Thanks to my father, my family athletic gene allows me to win some nice trophies in sport. I won the best female athlete twice in school, once when i was form 4( if im not wrong) and another one when i was form 6, just because all the seniors were busying prepare their finals. I have been playing volleyball since i was 9, and now playing for UM, just the passion though I'm not a really good player. I'm stubborn, i don't usually take others' suggestion or change my mind. When I want or have a desire to something, its certainly that i gonna make it happen. Thing which i have decided and it wont  be changed unless there is a part of impossibility that render it impossible to perform.

I don't think i can be a playgirl. Haha! i aint qualified for that. I actually hate playboys and big time liars. They're just too horrible. I'm not saying that lying is inherently wrong. There must be a reason u lie. There is a huge difference between white lies and lies, make it clear to yourself.  After all, we're all liar, what kind of liar you wanna be depends on what kind of lie you wanna make. 

Yeah, i may be young, but AGE to me, its not an issue of mind over matter. I might have experienced or dealt or seen something that allowed me to grow and go out of my comfort zone.

John Heywood once said,:" If you will call your trouble experiences, and remember that every experience develops some latent force within you, you will grow vigorous and happy, however adverse your circumstances may seem to be."

Its not even a matter when it comes to relationships. Who says that women can only get married at the age of 27-30 years old. Who says that having a baby at the age of 18 or 45 is wrong? As long as its legal, you think you're ready and mature enough to handle all challenges, why not? No one gonna stop you.

Don't judge me just because you think you're prettier than me( or vice versa)
Don't judge me just because you're smarter than me.
Don't judge me just because you come from a rich family.
Don't judge me just because I'm younger than you.

Albert Einstein once said, : " Whoever undertakes to set himself up as a judge or Truth and Knowledge is shipwrecked by the laughter of the gods."

Thomas Jefferson, :" We should never judge a president by his age, only by his works,'

Judgements prevent us from seeing the good that lies beyond appearances.

Don't judge people before you discover what they're really all about. Impression can often be misleading and couched in your own biases. Get to know people before you decide you don't like them. We have to remember that people are different. What might be funny to you might be offensive to someone else.
Before judging me or others, look at yourself in the mirror first and smile. You will know.

With love,

Monday, August 8, 2011

Back to a student again

Local Universities decided to synchronize their academic calender with universities abroad, therefore, i'm actually having the so called summer break, 4 months, which means, a period equavalent to a short semester. Work! of course! Though i prefer to travel around, but... can't expect parents to pay for my travelling fees. After few months of working, started to get used to the life am having now. Get up reluctantly every morning, wash up and get ready to work. Only now I realize that, weekends pass pretty damn fast every week. Monday, here we go again, la la la... Friday! T.G.I.F!
I registered my subjects today, as i'm going to my senior year, so i was actually taking my sweet time to register, browsing around, talking and discussing with coursemates on FB! Don't need to fight for place of the subjects that i want like what i did when i was in my junior years. =.=
I feel kind of strange that i'm going back to be a student again. Hmmmm...The best part is all the lectures start at noon, basically i don't need to wake up so that early this semester! Ho ho ho! Goshh..i gonna treasure my last year in law schoollll! Weeeee~ ~

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Divorce - broken family

I actually quite enjoyed Family Law during my 2nd Year in law school, (ahem ahem...) if any of my coursemates are reading this, you know what i mean *winks*

Since i finished my official internship program, i'm now working in another law firm. 4 partners here practice different areas of law,i have chance to see Family cases, Litigation, Intellectual Property & Conveyancing. Cause i did not pass Family Law with flying colours, so i was kinda scared to touch the Family's files though i think its actually an interesting subject. 
One fine day, one of the partners asked me to do research on Family Law as i was the only one who took Family in the firm. 

Owwhh okay,divorce as usual. Kids, matrimonial assets and matrimonial home. Maintenance and Custody. One of the reasons i chose to study law because i do not like people take advantage from me, ME as a girl and woman! When i know someone takes advantage from his wife, it gets me angry and the 'sense of justice' overwhelms me. 'No way that asshole gonna get what he wants'. 

In most of the cases, wives get what they want. To decide the amount of the maintenance, the court will look at the standard of life before the breakdown.  Besides, the husband's income plays a crucial role in determining the amount of the maintenance for kids and wife. There are other factors that influence the decision as well. Basically it will be decided based on the facts of every cases.

The cause of action in most of the divorce petitions is another party committed adultery. Mostly, the husbands. Sometimes, i know its hard to be together with a person,lets say, 20 years or more! but please, have you ever considered or thought about the consequences. Some guy just can't resist the temptation,but... WHO CAN?! tell me! So you think your spouse can resist the temptation? ask him or her yourself! i believe she/he has plenty of chances to cheat on you! but why? why they choose not to do so? what are the reasons?

As you are in a tight corner, divorce may look like a solution. "After all", you might say this, " life is full of second chances. Perhaps i simply married the wrong person and Mr. or Mrs Right still out there somewhere." Most would agree that when a spouse is unfaithful or abusive, divorce is a real option. But this kind of relationship is about taking..not giving, disrespect and mental/physical abuse. In fact, its not a marriage at all. 

You may think you were too young when you married, or that you never really loved your spouse. You just convinced yourself it would be better than being alone. Or maybe you are just too tired of the arguing, tired of the lack of communication, tired of the coldness in your relationship. Perhaps you simply just wanna get out from the relationship. 

Come on and think about it now, its time that you stick up for your primary decision to marry your husband or your wife and really look back on those great time, those perfect moments that truly made you marry that person. 

As i remembered, my friend approached me and sought my consultation on family matter. Her parents had been separated for more than 6 years, husband brought his girlfriend after wife found out the emails that husband sent to his girlfriend,3 children, 2 girls and 1 boy. Imagine, if you were the kid, how would you feel? By saying that here, i can feel the pain of the mother. How devastated she was when she saw the girlfriend so as well the kids. So. staying together 'for the sake of the kids' will actually cause more harm than good. Children need loving parents, a home to return to, friends, activities and routine. Factors such as these, together, represent a child's sense of security. Divorce breaches this emotional security, as the child will digress the rebellion , escapism, guilt, violence, withdrawal, depression, stress, denial and so on.

One time, my friend said this, "who is not from a broken family?", everybody just went silence. And some of my friends actually concurred with my friend. I was like "VOT?! i beg your pardon? THAT'S BAD!!"  But hey, looking at the society we're living now, divorce is getting common. I actually feel that marriage just a 'licence' to have baby, after all, marriage just a piece of paper. I told my mum the same thing! i can't i believe i did it! my mum asked me calmly, " what about relationship? you won't marry a guy that you don't have any feeling, yes?" "yes mum yes! i know somebody who did it, just because of the money and social status!teeheeee..." Money and Social Status can get it easily, whatever ways you use. But reputation of real value takes a long time to grow- like a tree. And it can be ruined just a second. 

Nevertheless, my friends from broken family all agree that, divorce really a damage to the family.  How could a divorce bring positive effect to a child? Children of divorced parents have to confront a new way of living. Depending on whether the divorce was amicable or not, they might have witnessed some nasty conflict between their parents in the lead-up to divorce. Custody disputes can also harm children as they often feel pulled in two different directions, this can be seen in the recent case Bi-Anne where the London Based restaurant manager Miss Tan Siew Siew wanted her daughter be with her but the daughter insisted that she wanted to live with her father.
Divorce can have a significant and life-altering impact on the well being and subsequent development of children and adolescents. It might affect relationship between parents and children, emotions and behaviour, psychologically and physically. Think twice before you take your step. Try to put yourself into other's shoes before your reach your final decision.  

A happy marriage is not a marriage between 2 perfect people who just happened to meet each other and get married. There is no such thing as 'perfect' people! A happy marriage is a marriage between 2 imperfect people who love each other with unselfish, committed love. Agape love is not blind-it sees the faults of the other person, but it covers them with love.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

How i Spent my birthday week =)

I got chosen as one of the finalists for Miss Pahang Tourism Malaysia 2011. I didn't expect this could actually happen. The day before the audition, as i recall, i asked my friend, whether i should go for the audition tomorrow, my friend told me, just go for it, why do you hesitate? i was like " hmmmm...hmmmm...", i went back home kinda late that night, and did not expect i could wake up early in the morning, cause the audition started at 9am and finished 1pm. 

The next morning, surprisingly, without alarm or snoring from my roomies, i woke up at 9++ A.M, i was laying in bed, questioning myself, should i go? hhmm..just for fun, must do something before i get older. I called my sister, as i supposed to visit my sister and my parents that morning, my sister shouted at another side of the phone and said :" what are you waiting for, just go!" LOL...ok, cleaned myself up, put on light make up, then i off to audition.

They required plain white shirt and jeans, as i reached the place, i saw several girls were waiting and one of them was being interviewed.  The audition was an open public audition so that's a possibility that i might embarrass myself in front of all girls and the judges or, perhaps interviewors. After 15 mins, lots of questions came to me. " what do you do" blah blah blah... they asked about my talent. "hmmm..singing perhaps?" " owh, awesome! sing me a chorus then!"  ( are you guys serious ah...) ok, " la la la....~ ~ ~"  

* a round of applause* 

"wow, very good very good! indeed, you have a good and powerful voice! we'll contact you if you're selected, the result probably out by tonight or tomorrow morning" ( good and powerful voice? are you kidding me?LOL...)

The next morning, i received a text from them saying that i got selected and so on. I was actually not that excited and had a mixed feeling as they needed me to be away 1 week to Kuantan Pahang,especially one of those days was my birthday =(  i looked at the tentative, gosh, on my birthday, "shooting, lunch, dancing class, dinner, dancing class". 

*eyes rolling* GRREEAAATTTT!!

well, since i got selected, i should have felt happy.. i actually came to this point :" Urgh, whatever, i might be alone on my birthday so why not i celebrate my birthday with those pretties!!" LOL the night before departure , i even went to Changkat for drinks, i believed my friends and i had a good time there perhaps? because of the free drinkkksssss we got! HAHAHA...

Anyway, 1 week passed, everything just happened so fast, Doesn't time fly? Time simply flew. But i was exhausted, with limited sleep, those shootings and dancing and blah blah blah drained me dry faster than i could imagine. Also, i was rushing for my internship report(S). I carried the net book wherever i go, in the bus, studio, restaurant.... everybody kept asking me like " hey, i know you're rajin la, don't give us pressure! " @@  how i wish i could jump into my bed and not worried about my report the next day! 

Besides, 12 of us staying in a Semi-D bungalow, 3 bathrooms, IMAGINE! how long i needed to wait for my turn! Well, after all, we were all happy and i actually feel grateful that i got to know all these girls, they're just so nice and friendly. We laughed together, we had good gossip, we sweat together... I feel like, we're like family already. Even after pageant, we're still meeting each other. What more can i ask for?

Our Guru
It was quite memorable when i first stepped in the dance studio, my choreographer, Jeannie was practicing!She shook like a rock star, her dance moves really shocked me! Imagine, a mother of 2, the eldest already 24-year-old this year, almost my mother age, i can't even shake like her! 
* ashamed
she's so energetic and chummy! Skinny also.. *sulking*

My catwalk coach, Weena Marcus, only 22 this year, the 2009 Miss Malaysia Tourism! I think her name is cool, Weena Marcus, sounds so brithish and she's half Chinese and Half...Kadazan ( if i'm not wrong :p)

Although i did not manage to get any title any this pageant, but i have learned a lot, more than i expected, a very good exposure indeed. At least, i have done something that i have always wanted to do,  to prove myself. =))

Nitez, folks! Xoxo with love <3

Alane Neo

Sunday, June 26, 2011


Just done the shooting with Logan Goh, a local photographer, GUYS, he's great! seriously ;) please support his event page on facebook!! -))

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Cheers darlin'

'Cheers darlin' by Damien Rice is a very emo song! I didn't know this singer until one blue night, when i was struggling to finish my revision, my roomie sent me this link. The music my roomie likes, is abit.. 'unique' which i don't normally listen to. haha. So whatever she sends to me, i will be " hmmmm..whats this again?", but i was surprised when she showed me this. I love the lyrics, and how he delivered the song. 

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover boy
Cheers darlin'
I got years to wait around for you
Cheers darlin'
I've got your wedding bells in my ear
Cheers darlin'
You give me three cigarettes to smoke my tears away

And I die when you mention his name
And I lied, I should have kissed you
When we were running in the rain

What am I darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover man
Cheers darlin'
I just hang around and eat from a can
Cheers darlin'
I got a ribbon of green on my guitar
Cheers darlin'
I got a beauty queen
To sit not very far from me

I die when he comes around
To take you home
I'm too shy
I should have kissed you when we were alone

What am I darlin'?
A whisper in your ear?
A piece of your cake?
What am I, darlin?
The boy you can fear?
Or your biggest mistake?

Oh what am I? What am I darlin'?
I got years to wait... 

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Early in the morning

Work as usual, i like to work, at least it keeps me busy. 1st day, i woke up at 6.45am, shower, breakfast and  ready for work. Reached here half an hour early....waited more than half an hour. Bored and i'm now at Starbucks having my daily coffee. Cappucino for myself. It is early and the shopping mall is empty, and it is warm! WARM!! i'm sweating like a pig! Newspaper and coffee, what a sexy combination. Yum yum. A blissful moment, love the music they playing here and the morning sun, the environment, the atmosphere. A cup of freshly ground coffee is what it takes to get me moving in the morning.

Cheers =D

** i actually hate waiting**

Thursday, June 9, 2011

i'm just bored

another boring day.. waiting ... ... ..

before rocking club

Lang Tengah Trip