Perhaps..i am wrong

I always think that people must be given a chance to say what they wanna say and do what they wanna do. I don't judge people (hmm... try not to judge) as i don't like people judge me. I always refuse to trust my feeling or my 6th sense, as it always appears before i know that person. Sometimes, it beats me and i will tell myself disappointingly that "i was right!". I used to share things with people, only reliased that people can be that selfish and evil, betray your trust and they care about themselves most times. Everybody wears mask, makes you believe that you're so special to them. Eventually they leave you and  say "sorry" and seek your forgiveness. Everybody is using each other, to achieve their own purposes. Day after day, year after year... you'll realise naturally some people are that selfish. That reminds me Jurisprudence that i learned during my third year in law school, Thomas Hobbes expresses a view that society was formed from a state of nature whereas without an ordered society, people are naturally poor, nasty, brutish and selfish. Its understandable that his views about the core human nature were influenced by his times where the English Civil War and Cromwellian dictatorship had taken place.


Now, i always think that people are selfish and nobody would be that kind to help you if you have problems. Even when i tell my sisters or friends that," hey, you know how i got my shit out of this. He/She helped me out! He/She saved me from this shit!" Their normal response, "he's hitting on you larr! for sure!" " Really? A girl? what does she want from you?better be careful!". Hey hey...hold on...what society am i living now? Civil Law? World War II? or what? I can understand people are trying their best to survive in this society, after all i think we're doing good. We're not at war, economic is okay, our country is getting better(i think, if compared to other countries), the Internal Security Act is ready to be repealed by new legislation. I think our government has taken a big step trying to change the law now, i have no idea and cannot predict the impact of the new legislation on us as civilian, nevertheless, they're trying.


Well, this is the world we're living in, suck it up.

Lack of attention

People always tell me, "hey, your latest blog post is so emo". "am trying to get attention! IMMA ATTENTION SEEKER!". In this era of information technology, we have social networks such as facebook, twitter, friendster etc. Bringing about a fast evolution of technology in daily life, we can access to internet via phones-- blackberry, iphone, samsung galaxy... all the smart phones, we get information way way faster compare to 50 years ago. How powerful they are now in our life. I believe without all these social networks, i bet Lynas news/protest wouldn't be that influential. But how many people really know the real story behind? Alot of news that appear on the social networks, gossips and whispers. How many of them are true? The story that eventually come to you might be a different version. People add this and that, make it more interesting, and u just believe what you hear or what is published on all these social utilities? *facepalm*


Also, as a result of these. People started abusing social networks, sometimes i doubt the genuineness of stories that i get. I become very suspicious. I know the initial purpose when people create Facebook or Twitter, a place where connects people with friends, family and others. But now... hmmmm.. its like a deadly weapon that may turn against you anytime, have to be careful of what you say, what you do, what you think...cannot simply comment publicly. Ohh dammnn... where is the freedom of speech? So, if you don't want any trouble of these. Try to keep as low profile as you can. People can be superstar maybe just only need a little  bit of effort by posting pretty PS pictures on these social utilities, i honestly tell you guys that, i do not really trust the pictures that i see on internet. =S 


WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS WORLD? *scratching head*

News & Updates

It has been awhile..since last time i posted all my 'natural' look here. HAHA. Anyway, back to holiday, back to party. Have been partying awhile here and there. Mostly are events or special occasions like international deejays sorta.

New semester just started and i'm doing my FINAL sem now. Time flies... like rocket. I actually feel abit anxious of being 'released' soon from almost... 20 years of reading books, exams, teacher, class, classmates. I'm moving towards.. a so called 'new life' ( for others, the definition might be different as they prefer to refer 'new life' as 'marriage life'..well, whatever.) I always tell people, yeaa..i love working blah blah blah cause i finally don't need to depend on somebody...hmmm... come and think about that, actually i do. I still need to wait patiently everymonth for the salary. Grrrr.. money money money. Work to survive, work to get whatever i desire, luxury and all. =.= life is life. LIFE SUCKS! =(

I'm actually quite free this sem, total of 15 Credit hours of classes compared to my normal 23 credit hours of classes that i used to take. Therefore, i make sure every gathering i attend must be memorable. I make sure every house party i go, everybody must be drunk/wasted. i call that.."fun". Its no point you attend a party ,sit at the corner and busy checking out your phone like you're busy texting smbd, c'on! like, seriously?

i think everybody has the same thinking, and parties have been organised weeks follow weeks. Not 'drink drank drunk' parties, rather like gathering, barbeque, so on. We come out for meals more often, red box. Even those people who always reject invitation have shown their faces in many occasions.

This year, i gonna get myself a camera. A fine one. So that i can snap some nice pictures in Aussie. M going  to Gold Coast right after my exam and come back on my birthday. Have a negative thinking that Am i gonna spend it alone this year? haha... well, will let god decide.hehe =p

webcam is the best

Noticed that i have plenty of photos in my laptop, why not share? LOL i'm pretty daring eh!

Year 2009

damn i was so slim that time! T____T

Year 2010

Year 2011

The fact shows that... i need a camera! IPHONE, WHY YOU NO COME TO MAMA!

Sum up 2011 + Christmas + New Year eve Celebration

OK, the end of the year. Lotsa parties and celebration.  Well, man cannot just live by bread alone. We do need other things to complete our life.  December is indeed a 'bread and circuses' month.
When a new year is approaching, people always have their so called new year resolution. I doubt that do people really follow that? hmmm...question mark! Me, i don't have one as i know i won't really stick to that. if i had one, i wish i could i get slimmer this year. HAHAHA!
Ok talk about 2011, it was a great year after all. I joined pageant, more shootings, single and i was able to spend more time with friends and family. Attachment- done, spent my 4 months in law firm and went to travel around after that. Well, i really loved that.  No hard feelings i hope, i sincerely apologize to those i offended and thank those people who have been staying by my side whenever i need them. Now, is 2012! Lets do something crazy!

Christmas Eve

My lady boss had a small Christmas celebration, she called me up. I was laying in bed, watching 'House', so i thought like alright, since i got nothing to do, YEAHH why not! then that went like that, I thought it was a simple celebration, i say simple i mean.. chill and quiet. who knows, when i reached there, i saw 10+ bottles of red wine on the table, and good food as well. 

The thing was, only 10 + of us.. OMG!! yes, i started drinking like...3pm that day? and i was well aware that that night not gonna be an easy night. "WHO CARES!!! ITS CHRISTMAS EVE!"


And then 2nd round, it started around 8pm with family and with all relatives in KL. Its kinda like an annual party that we do it every year, Christmas Eve and New Year Eve- booze and tons of  nice home cooked food- typical Neo's gathering. All of us able to attend this gathering <33 what more could i ask for?

FOODDDD...morree FOODD!

i didnt really eat that night as i had too MUCHHHH at 1st around.

 I  SURVIVED that night. Managed to drive back home..SOBERLY and most importantly, i got home safely. I was kinda proud of myself actually, HAHA! *rolling eyes*

NEW YEAR EVE

another crazy night for Neo's family. Normally held at my uncle's, and my aunty is damn best baker ever. I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY IT! last year, my mouth was wired shut because of the surgery, so i was not able to eat those nice desserts and all my cousins tempted me and showed me HOW FREAKING TASTY THE DESERTS WERE!!


THIS YEAR...i told myself "I GONNA REVENGE!!!"



 Food is pretty much the same as last year... but the taste...MAMAMMY Yyyyaaa!

blissful 

*sobs*

They taste like heaven!

with my sis and niece

Sisters, brother, uncle and my lovely cousin <3

Neo's sister 

i actually admire my sister got the courage to cut her hair short (who standing in the middle) *claps*

 with my cousin, who now lives in Spain 

Messy Bar + sexy Bartender 

Me and my cousin's daughter

2012!!!

well, Happy New Year to All of you. I hope that u guys have an awesome year ahead! cherish your love, your family and your friends. I appreciate every moment i spend with the people, especially those who care and love me. Who knows what the future holds in store for me. Life is short, live it now and live it with all your strength and passion! Don't keep it reserve against a day you might not have!

Cheers,


with love,
Alane xx

I'm just a girl

normal day, normal music. using the word 'normal' is abit weird. Well, i can sit there whole day, listen to Toni Brexton and Whitsney Houston's songs. Oldies especially, songs made in a decade before. Well, i kinda like emo songs, yeaps, girls all love emo songs! HAHA.. guess its our nature eh! Have been partying less and trying to spend more time on studies and healthier activities, guess something has changed me *shocked* 
My friends are so surprised when i tell them "yea, i have no time to party now, free we can have dinner, catch up.". They are like "what?not party but dinner?" C'on! Was i really a party queen to you all last time? i think i was. Isshhh... Things are different now, i prefer to spend more time in reading, doing something beneficial and everyday is so productive. Whats more ridiculous, i sometimes sleep at 11pm on a Saturday nights *shocked x 2*


 OR

watch " The Good Wife" the whole weekend, I do party sometimes, but lesser compare to before. Maybe once or twice a month. It really depends on my mood. 
Well, perhaps this is because i'm doing my final year, my student life gonna end soon, i gonna cherish it, blah blah blah...ALTHOUGH i always say that i prefer working cause i can spend my own money. hmmm...i have no certain answer for this, maybe this is the effect of hormone changes...owhhhh no wonder i gain weight so easily now. 


Conclusion: i'm getting old :[ 

EVEN I'M AGING LIKE A FINE WINE, I WILL BE AS COOL AS THIS!

Oh no no..maybe this is abit too much for me. :p

My Normal Routine

(This only applies to WEEKDAYS *GRINS*)


My morning routine! Nowadays, i wake up at/around 7.30am, wash up myself, dress up and JOG! Unbelievable right for a lazy bum like me... Well, after months of uncontrolled eating styles and occasionally happy hour, i look like a pregnant woman  now, therefore... i gonna do something i told myself. Normally it takes 1 hour including the warm up, sit ups and cool down. After that, i make myself breakfast. YES, breakfast. To me, breakfast is very very very very.... important. C'on, its first meal of my day, so it must be a kissass one. I've been trying not to skip any of my breakfast, unless i over-sleep, even if i do, i will die die go and dapau something. Perhaps, nasi lemak or MacD breakie. 

 Normally i will prepare something like this, scramble eggs or omellete and sausage. Sometimes with sandwich or pancake. Cant expect me to eat the same thing eevrrryyydaaaayy.

OR 

All instant one, HAHA! only need to reheat the mantou and spaghetti i cooked the other day. But now microwave spoiled already, i can't have my mantou anymore. 

and Coffee!! i'm a coffee lover, i'm very particular in coffee, and the are only few cafes i like which are Starbucks and another one is Dr Cafe, St Francisco Coffee not bad also. 1 tea spoon of Nescafe powder, 1 tea spoon of creamer, 1 sugar and 1 sweetened condensed milk. Yeahh, that's Alane's Coffee. HAHA!

Ok now, i tell you why breakfast is so important!! Its common that people skip breakfast, especially those who are trying to lose weight, but let me tell you one thing in which i have doubt about it, there are a lot of articles actually talk about the importance of breakfast where scientific research has confirmed that most of the leading causes of death and chronic diseases are preventable. By adding breakfast to your eating pattern is a major step to improving your lifestyle.

A good breakfast boosts your energy, increases your intention span, and heightens your sense of well-being. You'll have better control of your emotions.  The effect of skipping it- short of attention span, lack of alertness, longer reaction time, low blood sugar, decreased work productivity and the list go on. Anyway, its a good investment of your time. Try to get into a habit of eating breakfast =))

After breakie- as you all aware that--->Girls, need time to dress up and get ready.  I don't really take a long time to prepare ( ok, maybe i lie) anyway, mostly half an hour?

Ok done! my nurdy look! Here i come, UM!!

In between if i have a long break, will come home and take a short nap if i'm really tired.

By the time i reach home after all the classes and discussions, meetings,blah blah blah, its already 7 ish. Again, i cook myself dinner, cause it's healthier and it saves cost. HAHA! steamed chicken and vege is my dinner most nights. 

Then i watch some shows, do my reading blah blah blah..sometimes hang out with friends, la la la....

BED TIME!!!

Anyway, old nenek needs her beauty sleep. =)) 

Nitez everybody *yawn* 

Xoxo